" Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." Psalm 27:14
And it's as simple as that :)
I wish.
spring.
My most immediate desire is to be on the beach...even if it is with those 7 crazy girls life would not be the same without ;) 2 more days and I'm still not sure I will survive that long. I need to be able to enjoy warm, beautiful weather in one of my favorite places on Earth. A swimsuit, towel, fishin pole, and maybe a toothbrush and some stuff to shower with--I am good to go. To see the ocean before me, know that it my Savior created it for me to enjoy...and that His love is even greater than the depths and span of it, takes my breath away...
job.
I just want to teach...I just want to use my degree...I just want to do what I was created to do...And it's only been about 3 months that I've actually had that degree. Talk about impatient. Currently, I have applications all over East Texas, Central Texas, North Texas, South Central Texas, the Panhandle, and a few along the coast...and the DoDEA program overseas. A teaching job is probably the single greatest desire in my life right now, so what is the hold up?! First of all, no one is even hiring right now. Second, I think that possibly God has a particular place and a particular group of students He wants to place in my life...so why would I want to be outside the will of God and miss a spectacular blessing???
love.
I'm genuinely concerned that I will never be able to feel this again...which is completely ridiculous when I give myself a reality check. My heart ain't broke...it's just broken in. I'm praying that I don't push people away in the process of finding the person willing to stick around until I drop my guard. :) Not necessarily right now, but in the future, I would even give up teaching to be a wife and a mother. I believe that is my greatest purpose in life. I have a servant's heart and a desire for someone who's life I could make a little easier and better, and with whom to share this crazy adventure called life. However, with that being said, I'm not willing to settle for anything less than the guy that knows this relationship must be firmly grounded in Christ, knows he doesn't deserve me, and is ready to participate in one crazy adventure :)
people.
I just have a tendency to be very impatient with people who take life too seriously and are always worrying about something...ironic, huh? I'm slowly learning to take life day by day and to just relax. I can tell you for sure I'm about 110% better than I was this time last year thanks to the Potter's hands...Anyway back to people. One could assume that I still have patience to acquire before I am blessed with the job and love described above...cause I bet they both require more patience than I have right now...I guess God knows what He's doing.
myself.
There's a problem when my greatest desire right now is a teaching job rather than growing closer to God. How am I supposed to know His will for me if I am not drawing closer to Him???? I am impatient with the process of becoming the person that I want to be (professionally, physically, spiritually, etc.) Pray for me on that one.
peace
...is what I lack because the patience that I need stems from Perfect Peace. So, I think I'll focus on the root of the problem for now :)
So if you read this one looking for advice...I apologize.
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